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I can't look at myself on screen.

Imagine watching yourself making the same mistakes over and over again, and your helpless to do anything about it. Now imagine a room full of people watching this with you.

They're not really mistakes though, let me explain.

Have you ever come out of an exam and thought "Damn! I should have done that question this way!" and you go over it endlessly till your pretty sure you flunked the whole exam. And it's obviously to late to go back and change anything cos it's in the editor..err, examiners hands now. Well, that's how I feel after a scene has been shot, except my paper is gonna be shown to as many people as possible. However, they won't see these 'mistakes'. Thankfully, these mistakes are only for me to bear, as my mind plays out all the different things I could have (should have?) done to improve my character.

We are almost at the end of the film.

I don't think anyone will ever know the lesson in expectations this sentence has come to symbolise for us. As a producer I feel tired. Weary. But I smile as I see to the completion of this production I helped create.

As an actor I quickly turn away from it, and try my best to forget it, till the report card comes in.

Neil

oh, hello

Its been a long time since I lasted posted here... Just to bring you up to date: We refilmed the scene at Mdina and it came a lot better than the old one. Today we filmed a talking scene between Adam and Hollie on a boat at Msida. We were cramped in a small place but I think it came good. I'm going to start editing it soon. We really are very close to the end of the film now, which is a relief. I'll post again after I've edited the scene and I'll upload a couple of screenshots.