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I can't look at myself on screen.
Imagine watching yourself making the same mistakes over and over again, and your helpless to do anything about it. Now imagine a room full of people watching this with you.
They're not really mistakes though, let me explain.
Have you ever come out of an exam and thought "Damn! I should have done that question this way!" and you go over it endlessly till your pretty sure you flunked the whole exam. And it's obviously to late to go back and change anything cos it's in the editor..err, examiners hands now. Well, that's how I feel after a scene has been shot, except my paper is gonna be shown to as many people as possible. However, they won't see these 'mistakes'. Thankfully, these mistakes are only for me to bear, as my mind plays out all the different things I could have (should have?) done to improve my character.
We are almost at the end of the film.
I don't think anyone will ever know the lesson in expectations this sentence has come to symbolise for us. As a producer I feel tired. Weary. But I smile as I see to the completion of this production I helped create.
As an actor I quickly turn away from it, and try my best to forget it, till the report card comes in.
Neil
2 comments:
It's true. I feel the same way about my filming. The whole film is my filming its different stages and styles... we've got some scenes in the 2nd half that I filmed almost 2 years ago... I want to update them to show how I've improved, but we can't. But this is our FIRST movie and was only meant to be an experiment and a way of testing our skills and learning... so far what it is I think it's good. We turned our learning film into a proper story and tried to add depth and characters (albeit a little late in the production maybe, but still).
My god how very true...I feel like I need to add some more..but what Neil just said sums it up very..erm..nicely
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